I have a wonderful husband that treats me very well. Today is his 32nd birthday. The boys got him presents and picked out a card and I wrote him a nice card too. We even went out to dinner to his choice, Carbone's Pizza, with my brother and his family. I tried to be extra nice and loving to him but didn't do such a good job at keeping my cool at dinner. My boys were out of control and I didn't have enough patience for them. Jaden had already ticked me off from an hour and half of crying before nap and then woke up cranky. Both boys were all over my lap and were just uncontrollable. I made Bryan put the boys down for bed tonight because I just couldn't take any more. Bryan is so great, he just takes it in stride. He is truly a great husband and great dad and I honestly couldn't ask for anyone better. He is my perfect gift from God. I appreciate and love him more than he will ever know.
I have been on a bit of a blog hiatus because, well, let's be honest, I have been a bit down. Life here is not that interesting yet. I really wish I had a job and my kids were in a Montessori school. There are a couple of problems there. I need to appreciate where my life is now but also work to get it where I want it to be. I want an aerospace engineering job but I don't have enough confidence in getting a job or recalling all that I previously learned. It is scary how much I have forgotten. I am settling for putting Jaden in a Lutheran preschool for now because it is cheaper.
I am hoping for more time to spend on finding a job and more breaks from my boys. Bryan will soon be helping me out more. I know things will get better and more interesting as we get more settled in our house and the number of projects diminishes. I know that I need more appointments with friends and family to get me out of the house. Spending time with others, with or without my kids, helps my mood and motivates me to do more with my days. I am hoping that next time I blog, I can be more upbeat but this is where I am right now.