what to do

I have been working on explosives for 5 weeks (short of 1 day)! I had high hopes that I would be working on the NASA Ares I rocket again by now but that has not happened. The prospects don't look good.

I am using this blog to process. I really don't know what to do. Do I just stick it out and work on weapons or find something else to do in the mean time? I am not even working on weapons on the air. I told the boys I am working on explosives now and Jaden asked, "In the air?" I had to tell him, "No, on the ground. It stays on the ground and doesn't go in the air."

I really love the kids school and want to keep them there but I need to work to pay for it. Bryan could work more to pay for it but I don't want to sit at home. I want to work but I want to work on space stuff. It seems like that is getting close to impossible in the Minneapolis area.

I just don't know what to do but I am not loving my job. Right now I am there for the people. I love being around other people and it is my "mission field." I am also there for the 1% of hope I still have that Ares will return to my workplace and I will get to do some of the work.

I took this job with the hopes of doing space stuff but if there is no space work to be done, I would not have taken the job. I really don't know what to do.

Bryan signed a 2 year contract with his work and we are in no hurry to move but I am thinking about looking for other jobs out there. Maybe the prospect of looking will give me hope and something to look forward to. Again, I don't know what to do. I am unsettled and undecided.